I'm Free!!!!

I'M FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yyyyaaayyy!!!! Uh huh! Oh yeah!
I had my finals on Monday and now I'm on summer break! Totes! Uh huh, yeah, aaahhh! As you can tell I'm just a little bit excited.
I am now officially a senior. Wow. That's a little scary to think that now I'm a senior. I only have one more year of high school and then I'm college bound. A very sobering thought.
But I know what I want to do. I'm going to be a pediatric nurse in a children's cancer center.
Brave.
Every time I tell anyone what I'm going to do they are all like, cancer center? Children? wow. You must be really brave.
And I am.
At least, I should be.
I lost my dad to cancer. I lost my grandma to cancer. I lost my grandpa to cancer.
I want to make a difference.
Which brings me to our journal topic.

Journal 10:

Here's our last journal guys.

How are you going to impact the world?

One simple statement.
Here's mine.
I'm going to touch families who are going through incredibly hard times. I'm going to be that small ray of hope for hurting people when they lose their loved ones. I will be Jesus. Jesus shines through me.
How about you?

Recently I've been thinking. I know, that's not always the best thing.
But I mean, I just turned 17 last week. I'm almost a legal adult. I'm almost ready to fly the nest. What am I going to do? How can I live in this world as a Christian? What will the world throw at me next?
I don't have answers to any of these questions. I wish that I did. That would make the rest of my life so much easier.
But I do know the One who has all the answers. His name is Jesus.
Yeah, this may sound cliche. But then again aren't we all just a little cliche?
I'm not ashamed of my Jesus.
You shouldn't be either.

From now on I'm going to try and find the answers to these questions by growing closer to Him. I'm going to seek to know His heart as well as He knows mine. I know that this is a task that I can never accomplish. Which makes it so beautiful.
I can never understand His love for me. I will never be able to see His whole plan and destiny for my life.
Why He would be able to love me is out of my mind. But it's such a beautiful thought knowing that no matter what I do in this life. He will never love me less. And that's what I 'm going to try to do in my lifetime.
No matter what people do to me, no matter how much they hurt me. I will try to never love them less. Because that's what Jesus would want.

Something Extra!

Okay, are you ready to see numbers three and four of my bucket list.

3. Swim with sharks.
I am terrified of sharks. I have only ever been to the ocean once. But one day, I want to swim with sharks. To prove my fears wrong. (Even if I have to do it when I get to heaven).
4. Skydive
My greatest fear in life is heights. I can barely stand at the top of my tree house, which is only like 30 feet off the ground. When I look up at all the tall buildings that are downtown, my head starts to spin and I have to look to the ground.
One of my greatest goals in life is to conquer that fear. It will be excruciatingly painful to do it. But I am determined. :)

Y'all better be working on those bucket lists of yours! I know I am! And it's turning out magnificent!!!

It's been a long and great road guys. And now we are finally done with our journals. It's a bitter sweet thought.
But don't worry! In my next post I will have something new to do with our journals.

Well peace out girl scout! Until we meet again!
-Scout leader