Complicated...

How many of you have had tough spots in friendships? What about unspoken words that fill up space like a time bomb liable to explode at any waking moment?

Well, I can answer yes to both of those questions! Ever since kindergarten I can remember when I had a tough situation come between me and a friend, regardless of how close we were. But back then things were easier. Up until like sixth grade if you had a problem with a friend you just spit it right out. But as you get older something changes. You realize that both of you have feelings, and you don't what to hurt anyone's feelings. And then you get shy maybe, or scared that that person might not want to talk to you anymore once you tell them how you really feel. It gets way more complicated!

I have realized that the older you get, especially in your teen years, that it gets hare and harder to confront friends about how you really feel. Their is something different about being a teenager, your feelings get all jumbled up and you have a hard of making people understand you. I should know, because I'm a teenager! You'd think that as you get older like would get easier, but it's actually the opposite. We have school and work, jobs and responsibilities, families and friendships, commitments to keep. For me one word sums up life, complicated!

Right now I am struggling in a very important friendship to me. Their has miscommunication and unspoken words that needed to be said, but both of us are too prideful to break. I find myself at times so mad at this person, and then at other times feeling so broken not knowing what to do. I love this person so much, it's killing me watching our relationship die. This wasn't how I had planned it to be, I figured that we would be best friends forever. But life has the upper hand. Complications and problems arise. The hardest thing to do is forgive yourself. This whole conflict between us could have been resolved weeks ago, maybe even months, but we have both been to stubborn to give in and apologize and ask what's wrong.

I want to ask you something. Do you have a friendship that is wearing away at the edges? Or have you had a friendship that has broken down? I have both of those and they are not fun. I want to encourage you to not give up! Don't give up on that person, not matter how hard life seems to be, don't give up! Unless God specifically tells to pull away, stay where you are. Maybe it's just a huge misunderstanding, or miscommunication. I have walked away from friendships because of this and now I deeply regret it. For me it's too late to regain those, but it might not be for you!

Today I want to encourage you to try and mend a broken friendship. I know that your probably thinking, that's easy for you to say, you have no idea what I've been through with this person! Well, I probably know more than you think. My best friend violated my trust, betrayed me in a sense. In past friendships my friends have back stabbed me, ridiculed me, hurt me, and played me. I know what it's like to feel so broken and alone that all you want to to do is curl up and bawl your eyes out. I've done it before and probably will do it again. But this is not the end. God is in control and He can mend anything. And even if he chooses not to the Bible says that anytime God closes a door he opens a window. Pray and ask the Lord what path you should choose. But don't let good friendships die into nothing because of pride and hurt feelings. Make the first move, make life a little less complicated.