Changing of the Seasons

Fall is in full swing.
The leaves are starting to change colors, the air is crisp and cold, candles are making their big debut on mantle pieces, boots are back in fashion, and coffee is number one.
All the way it should be.
If you don't already know, fall is my favorite season. I did a whole post on it a month ago.

As I'm writing right now I'm drinking a cinnamon french vanilla coffee, while my snow apple mint candle is burning silently next to me, and Jazz music is softly playing in the background.
Can't you just feel the mood with me?
Perfection at its finest.

Friday afternoon me and my best friend, Lexie, died my hair.
I guess you might say that we were feeling sporadic.
The changing of the seasons does that to you.
We gave myself an Ombre.
Soooo cute!!!
I absolutely love it!
For some reason it's making me feel even more in the Fall spirit than normal.

Something tragic has happened in my church.
I am not going to go into any details whatsoever because it's too painful, and I don't really want everyone knowing everything that has happened.
Basically, sexual abusement happened and wasn't reported until a week and a half after it happened. And then it was just super complicated.
Now, five workers at my church have been suspended. And four of them are youth workers. And two of those youth workers are our youth pastors. And the other two, the girl is my role model and counselor, and the other one plays a huge role in my youth group. Acting like a fatherly figure to most of the girls there.
Let's just say that the past two weeks have been excruciatingly painful.
I know that the truth always comes out. And I know that what the devil intended for evil God has meant for good. But when your in the moment, it's hard to actually believe that.
I have cried so many tears. I don't know how it's humanly possible for someone to cry as much as I have the past week.
I know that God is collecting all my tears in a bottle. He holds the whole world in His hands. He loves us so much! Unfathomably!
This situation has strengthened my relationship with God so much. I've just had to give it all to Him. Rely that He knows exactly what He is doing. I can only see what's going on right in front of me. He sees the whole picture of all eternity.
With time, God will heal of our broken hearts and fix this church.
Until then, all that we can do is trust solely on God and meditate on His word.
I will say this though, because of all that has happened, our youth group has turned into a real family.
#WeAreFamily