Freely

Recently I've realized that you have to let go of past hurts. That it does no good to harbor bad feelings towards somebody or towards an event that has happened to you.
Last night at youth my youth pastor was talking about heaven and hell. About how they are both real places and that we, as Christians, will one day get to see our loved ones who have passed on before us. I started thinking about my dad. He died three years and three months ago. He had a very rare type of cancer that wasn't supposed to spread. That once you took it out it wasn't supposed to come back or go somewhere else. Obviously though it didn't do that. It came back like three or four in his right jaw and it spread to both of his legs and his back. It was devastating.

I have been doing a lot better about not dwelling on those past hurts and feelings. But last night something just struck me very hard. My youth pastor lost his dad almost two years ago. His dad was our pastor and it was very hard to lose him. He was talking about how he missed his dad and how he couldn't wait to get to heaven to see him again. I started thinking about my dad again. I realized that I had finally let go. It was the most amazing feeling that I have ever experienced since his passing. I started crying when I realized that I no longer had that sharp pain that was always inside of me. Yes I still miss my daddy with all of my heart and I will never, ever forget him. But I have finally learned how to go on living without constant pain eating away on the inside of me.

Life is too short to go on living without telling someone I love you. Without making amends with people who have done you wrong, or who you have done wrong. I realized the hard way, I have let way too many people leave my life without telling them I loved them. Or without apologizing. Don't let past things get in the way of a budding relationship. Don't let it ruin the short time on earth that you have with the people you love, and that love you. Love others freely!