Time-out

Today I just want to encourage you. I don't know anything about you, I don't know what your going through. But what I do know is that it WILL get better. Right now the horizon may look far off. So far off that you don't ever think you will see it again. I know that feeling, I know what it's like to think that your life is never going to get better. I know what it's like to not have any hope for the future. I have been there and done that!
I lost my dad almost three years ago, it will the three year marker on Monday. So July is not a good month for me. When my dad died I was hopeless, sometimes I still am. I didn't know what to do or who to go to for help and consilation. I went into depression,  I'm getting out of it right now. You could say that I'm still in the thick of it. I'm not in the clear yet, but I can now see the horizon. Three months ago I couldn't have said the same thing. Even three weeks ago I couldn't have said that! But it didn't happen all of a sudden, and I didn't do it on my own.
Someone had to call me out, someone had to wake me up spiritually. God had a lot of work to do inside of me. He still does, and will for a while. For the past three years I have been pushing down all of the hurt and sorrow that has been building up inside. But the past six months it has started to come up. Slowly but surely. And it's not pretty. I started doing things that I would never have thought that I would ever be doing, but I was. I was depressed...and alone.
But God has begun a work inside of me. And He's not finished with me yet! He is clearing out all of the rooms of my heart that are full of blackness. (and trust me, their is a lot LOL) It is painful, yes but he is helping me do it.
So I just wanted to encourage you, that no matter what you are going through, God is on your side. He is your number one cheerleader! Trust in Him, because He is your only friend that will never leave you or forsake you.
:)